The first of three this week in this beautiful personal project. It is one of my goals this year to do at least one personal project per month after doing a half year of self-portraits in 2017-18 and seeing how beautiful it was to have a documented journey of my emotions and healing at that stage of my life.
But this shoot was 2019’s first personal project. Like (almost) always, it was planned months in advance with a beautiful mood board on Pinterest. But as we started getting closer to the shoot, I noticed a lot of the images on my mood board were angry. Maybe an emotion I had felt when I started planning, but that was no longer the case and no longer the vision I had for this shoot. So things had to change, get softer.
Working with a model for the 5th time brings so much to light about who that person is and what their wants and dreams are. What they're insecure about and what are they afraid to do. I’ve known Sarah for 7 years and have been shooting with her since my third ever portrait shoot three years ago. She’s always willing to do anything and everything I need or want her to. In this case, it was sitting in a very cold bathtub because we couldn’t seem to get the water any hotter.
But aside from all our escapades, most of this particular shoot was focused on expanding my knowledge of posing and lighting and all the technical skills that most fashion photographers have tucked away somewhere, but it was also filled with pure and intimate emotions and thoughts. It is a highly debated topic in the photography world; the balance of technique and creativity. But after going through stages of both, I have learned that it is very hard to have one without the other.
So I am learning something in photography. And it transfers so beautifully into everyday life.
To be strong and yet vulnerable.